1955, I am born in the family with a rigorous style, I grown in mechanism courtyard, have the nature of forthright, unruly. My mother is more conservative on sexual idea, but very good-tempered to children.
We speak from disaccord boy in one's childhood, 12 years old come feel embarrassed to be told with the mother when official holiday, my aunt was in as it happens that day my home, we two sleep a piece of bed, I do not know how she discovers, it is she told me the mother, do not know how to be used when I had received official holiday to take from maternal hand.
12 years old masturbate for the first time too from time to tome, seeming is curious to his genital, to the mirror, moved back and forth a long time, without the climax.
When 14 years old, a man has held me in the arms, lying between the dress to had touched a breast, hold in the arms at the same time carry me on the head desperately with the private parts at the same time, in the loiter on my body, whats do not understand in those days, what is what do not know strike of the strike below his body, very fear, most those who be afraid of is to be pregnant.
Arrive all the time 1976, a lot of men are gone after, but had not played even the hand with the man.
Had known to like a schoolboy when 18 years old, once had liked bigger than me boy of 5 years old, we had not played even the hand. Listen to a cummer to had said only in those days, man and woman are together from time to tome the thing should be put in feminine body, what is wanting to want not to understand presumably.
18 years old of jobs, can say josh laugh with the male colleague in the unit, but never had had start work use a base. The man that chases me a few this years is not little also, but it is to connect a hand to had not been touched, I also very wood, think others does not like me, it is I imagine attraction from opposite sex. As good as former husband 1976 later, the male talented person that had liked me in the past more very much tells me, did not think of to know me 3 years two to did not get me, let a man that just meets a few months get. When I ask why they say not early, they say not dare, and feel to should understand in my heart. But I know only in those days, who to want to touch me only, I am his, feel my this lifetime is impossible to let the 2nd man touch me.
1976, my former husband the educated youth that they come back one batch from Yunnan corps, took our unit, he kissed me the first times, I feel I this is him all one's life (pure very lovely) . Also love him really in those days. Parents special object this marriage, feel the door is undeserved door incorrect. Go against turn over psychological do mischief, I maintained him. Love after 4 years, the ability in the home admits to have so individual. Love after 2 years, we live together, marry after 5 years.
A day, he took a condom to come to my dormitory in the evening, ended me to do everything maiden, what the sort of avulsion is painful, to now remain fresh in one's memory.